Behind the Lyrics: Melodies of Hope

I am a board certified music therapist. According to the Music Therapy Association, “Music therapy is the clinical and evidence-based use of music intervention to accomplish individualized goals within a therapeutic relationship by a credentialed professional who has completed an approved music therapy program.” I use music all day at my job to help others achieve their non-musical goals and improve their lives. 

Music therapists use their clients’ preferred music. That unfortunately means that they are often spending all day, every day, singing, playing, and listening to music they don’t necessarily like. After work, I sometimes enjoy silence. I also get relief from listening to my own music. 

On May 2nd, 2025, I got the devastating news that I had endometrial cancer. Since music is part of my job and a major part of my life, my mind immediately went to thinking how I could use music as a coping skill during this scary and uncertain time. I decided to create a playlist on Spotify. I titled it “Warrior Era.” I loaded this playlist with songs that were personal to me or were an encouragement. 

I thought I would share this playlist with you, or anyone else who needs encouragement. I also wanted to share my Top 10 songs on my playlist and why they are important to me. You can follow the link to see the entire playlist! https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5QHn3Enmj04ZTOFdnGjUJE?si=8bf08337f8894818 

10 The Next Thing (Centaur World)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4wAqIVAPQv3jfuG7ryahZP?si=aa07667996b14817 

I remember one day, I was listening to a “Steven Universe” soundtrack on Spotify. The playlist I found was sprinkled with songs from other shows and artists. An ominous lullaby came up as I was listening. I looked at the song playing on my phone and saw it was from a show called “Centaur World” found on Netflix. We had a Netflix subscription at the time. I was intrigued and found it. 

As I started watching, I kept thinking, “Why am I watching this?” It was just really stupid. The animation was weird. The characters were weird. Nick saw me watching it one day, looked over my shoulder and asked “What the heck are you watching?” I really thought about walking away and finding something else to watch. Despite hating the first couple of episodes, I decided to give the show a chance and watch a little farther. 

I ended up watching the show in its entirety and was left crying at the end. I actually watched the whole thing again (Don’t tell Nick! He will judge me!)! I also listened to the soundtrack months afterward (also behind Nick’s back!). 

This girl called Rider, and her horse, named Horse, were part of a war against minotaur monsters. They found a relic that was going to help them win the war. While trying to bring the artifact to the general, a portal is opened, and Horse falls through. She wakes up in a strange world called Centaur World where she is separated from her Rider. She is desperate to get back.   

While trying to get back to her world, she makes friends and becomes part of an eclectic herd of misfits and weirdos. She learns what it means to be part of a herd, or a family. She learns to rely on others instead of her own strength.   

In the song at the end of the show, “The Next Thing,” Horse sings, “I am stronger when I trust my family; When I lean on you, and let you lean on me; Wherever you are is where I’m meant to be…” 

Throughout this cancer journey I have not been alone. No one should have to face cancer alone. Nick has been by my side the whole way. Not only that, but we also have friends and family supporting us. We have been covered in prayer. Friends have brought over meals after my surgeries. I’ve had friends go with me to my appointments or given me rides. I have been given the space to talk about my cancer journey. 

I am so thankful for our community we are surrounded with. Once the cancer is gone, our next part of our journey, fertility treatment, is going to be just as difficult. I know I am going to need to have my family and friends around both Nick and I. This song is an encouragement and a reminder of how important family is during trials. 

9 Strong in the Real way (Steven Universe)

https://open.spotify.com/track/4JpFXCNw89JK9Jds6m9mtr?si=c28604bd59ef4cb2 

After completing my education, the next step to become a music therapist was to complete a 6 month internship. My internship took place at a residential facility for youth who have undergone severe trauma. They all had experienced some form of abuse or neglect. This population was outside of my comfort zone. I definitely grew personally and professionally as a future music therapist. 

One of the youth I worked with was very musically and artistically gifted. He loved making music videos and turning songs into theatrical duets. One of the songs he turned into a multipart theatrical piece was from the Cartoon Network show “Steven Universe.” He told me a bit about the show, but everything he was telling me went completely over my head. 

In music therapy, it is essential to use preferred music. If I am working with someone who only listens to country music, it is not going to be therapeutically appropriate for me to play classical music for him. Knowing this, I took some time to research some of the music from this show. I only watched a couple of music videos and was super confused about what was happening. If you’ve never seen the show and only saw the music videos like I did, you’d feel like you were watching a fever dream. 

A few years after I got my certification, Nick and I decided to get a Hulu subscription. While looking for shows to watch, “Steven Universe” came up. I recognized the name and decided to give the show a try… then I became obsessed! 

If you have never seen the show, “Steven Universe” is a story about aliens called Gems. Steven is a boy who is half human and half gem. He lives with his caretakers, a group of rebels called the Crystal Gems, who try to protect earth from corrupted Gems turned into monsters, and from Gems trying to invade and destroy earth from their home world. 

I am not going to give away any spoilers, but I will say after watching all 5 seasons, The Steven Universe Movie, and Steven Universe Future, I was left sobbing at the end. It is such a good show! 

In season 1, one of the characters, Pearl, sings a song called “Strong in the Real Way.” Steven had been inspired by a gem fusion (two gems merging together to form a new entity) called Sugilite. Steven wants to be strong like her, so he, his friends, and his dad start trying to work out. Pearl is frustrated and wants Steven to know there are other ways to be strong besides being physically strong. 

This song has a positive message and is an encouragement to me while I am going through cancer. I am not physically strong right now. As I am writing this, I am at home and not at work, sitting on the couch with a heating pad on my stomach, and trying to write while cramping severely. The cramps have been consistent since starting treatment. They range from annoying to debilitating. I am not frequently getting off the couch to go run marathons or lift weights. 

So many times, my oncologist has reminded me that a hysterectomy is still on the table. “If it ever gets to be too much,” I can change my mind and just be done with everything. I have been fighting cancer for over a year now. I have endured so much pain. I have had to face so many tests and procedures. 

The journey is not done. I am tired. There have been times I thought about calling it quits. While I am not physically strong right now, I exhibit my strength through enduring. I am strong by not quitting. We have already come so far with my treatment, and I am not going to give up so soon. As Pearl sings about being strong in the real way, I am reminded to continue to be strong and persevere. 

8 I Am Invincible (Cassadee Pope)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1RBtvkiaOgIFbB2tTbBgeg?si=e5b37daa9ffc47a2 

Filled with so much imagery, “I Am Invincible” is a song about resilience. I especially love the chorus when she says “I’m a diamond cut to last.” In order for diamonds to form, they have to go through tremendous pressure and heat. The end result is something beautiful and valuable. 

She also makes reference to a “phoenix from the ash.” A phoenix is an immortal, mythical creature. It is usually depicted as a bird with fiery coloring, or feathers made of literal fire. When a phoenix dies, it turns into ash. From that ash, it re-ignites and is reborn anew. I am hoping that through this cancer journey that I am able to come out on the other side as something new and beautiful.

I am not literally invincible. Clearly, cancer has taken its toll on my body and has threatened my life. But I can be resilient. Cancer isn’t the end. It doesn’t have to win. This song encourages me to stay strong and resilient. It gives me hope that something beautiful will come out of the ugly.   

7 Warriors (She-Ra and the Princess of Power; AJ Michalka)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1VQTA3jeKZ9ul94xroHmbz?si=0aa5c5d89aaa43f8 

I remember the week we decided to get Netflix again after not having it for a while. I had another heavy period. We were having trouble with our brakes and needed to have my car looked at. Despite bleeding profusely and feeling so sick, I reluctantly agreed to drive my car to the shop, then Nick would drive me home. 

On the way home, we stopped at Casey’s gas station. He came back out with an armful of snacks. Coffee, half a dozen donuts, and my favorite chips. We went home and I laid back down on the couch with a towel under me to catch any blood leakage. He came over and sat with me. I laid my head in his lap and cried because I felt so miserable. He showed me some of the shows that were on Netflix, hoping to distract me from my discomfort. We watched the first episode of Castlevania. I think I eventually fell asleep. 

Later that day, and throughout the week I browsed some of the shows and tried to see what I might be interested in. Castlevania was not quite my thing. I was confined to the couch and the bed all week, so I had nothing better to do. One of the shows I started watching was “She-Ra and the Princess of Power.” I watched a couple of episodes. I then decided the pacing felt a little slow, so I moved onto something else. 

I later came back and decided to give it another try. As I continued to watch, the pace picked up, and it became more and more interesting. Soon, I was binge watching it. I later learned that the Netflix cartoon was based off of the original She-Ra that aired in 1984. I heard of He Man before, but did not know there was a female counterpart. The show on Netflix was a reboot that first aired in 2018. 

In the reboot, themes of the power of love and friendship as well as girl empowerment are seen. This show is targeted more for younger girls and teens. However, the story and characters really drew me in as an adult watcher. I found myself invested in the story all the way through. When it ended, I was left feeling satisfied. The story ended with a strong sense of completion that didn’t leave me with questions or on a cliff hanger. I was left wanting more though in the sense that the show was so good and satisfying that I wasn’t ready for it to end! 

When I got my cancer diagnosis in May of 2025, my identity changed to “warrior.” When I decided to make a playlist for myself, the theme song to this show popped in my head immediately. There are two versions of the same song. There is a fast, upbeat version that is played during the opening. The same song is then played slower during the ending credits. 

The lyrics are as follows: “We’re warriors! Unstoppable!; [Verse 1] We feel the evil coming; And shadows all around; Danger surrounds us; But won’t bring us down; We’re on the edge of greatness; Turning darkness to light; We’re right beside you; Ready to fight!; [Chorus] We must be strong! (We must be strong!); And we must be brave (We must be brave!); We gotta find every bit of strength; That we have and never let it go!; [Verse 2] We’re bound to the struggle; With mighty sword and flame; We’ll never fail you; When you call our name; Together we’ll be heroes; Joining forces as one; Strong as the steel we carry; We rise like the su-u-u-u-un!”

The “evil,” “shadows,” “darkness,” and “struggle” I saw as symbolic to the cancer growing inside me and the hardship I was bracing myself to face. (This imagery comes up in another song on this playlist! Keep reading!) My mom is a breast cancer survivor. When I told her I had cancer, she encouraged me, “You come from a family of warriors. You’re going to be okay!” Fighting cancer really is a battle, but it’s one that cannot be done alone. 

In the She Ra reboot from 2018, Princess Adora finds out that she is the She Ra, but she struggles to accept this role or learn to use her powers. She relies on the help of her friends to defeat the Horde. Similarly, I knew that I would need to lean on my community around me to face the struggles I was going to face. 

In the chorus, Aaliyah Rose sings “We gotta find every bit of strength that we have and never let it go.” This song is an encouragement to me to never give up. Giving up would mean for me never having my own child. I am encouraged to fight against this attack on my body and my fertility. It’s going to take a lot of strength. “Joining forces as one,” I am now a cancer warrior with my friends and family behind me. I also join a community of people like me who are in this fight together against cancer. 

6 Keep Making Me (Sidewalk Prophets)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7m4E8QpiUyhPBGNALonJqS?si=e111d1ca7c5448c9 

Like everyone else, I’ve had my fair share of struggles and trials. It sometimes feels that when one trial ends, another begins. It just feels never ending! When I heard this song for the first time, I was in the middle of a trial. This song absolutely broke me. I wept every time I heard it. 

“Make me broken… Make me empty… Make me lonely…” This seems like dangerous territory, asking God for a trial. There is the saying, “be careful what you wish for!” Why would anyone want to go through something difficult? The trial I was going through when I first heard this song was hard. My current trial of going through cancer has been really hard. I wouldn’t wish what I’m going through on anyone. 

The chorus explains the reasoning for what seems like a ridiculous request! “’Til you are my one desire; ‘Til you are my one true love; ‘Til you are my breath, my everything; Lord, please keep making me.” The book of James in the bible says, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:2-4)

Other translations of this passage use the word “steadfastness” instead of “perseverance.” Trials make us resilient. We are made “mature and complete, not lacking anything.” This maturity refers to our faith and our relationship with the Lord. We lack nothing because we have everything in Christ. God uses our trials for our good, not to hurt us. His goal is to bring us closer to Him and to make us look like Him. 

The process of being made to look like Jesus is called sanctification. I once heard an analogy for sanctification in a marriage. Each person is represented by a rock. When they are put in a can and shaken, they turn into diamonds. Similarly, when metal is put through fire, it can then be shaped and formed into a sword. The potter sometimes has to scrape pieces of clay, squash and squeeze to make the jar the perfect size and shape for its intended purpose. 

Without trials in our life, we cannot experience the true peace of God or experience such a beautiful relationship with Him. Through trials, we are taught to trust Him and look to him for relief and provision. Throughout this cancer journey, I have seen God provide in amazing ways. I have seen him answer prayers. I have learned to find my comfort in Him. 

I know this is not the last trial I am going to endure in this life. Life is still going to be hard. There is still going to be a lot of pain. But I know God is going to use every opportunity to mold me into His likeness and bring me closer to Him. 

5 Same God (Elevation Worship)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7nrhv8ZemanddTfXk28rdy?si=eb0eea88e2b74627 

I absolutely love this song! It reflects on how God has been faithful throughout scripture. “I’m calling on the God of Jacob…. I’m calling on the God of Moses… I’m calling on the God of Mary… I”m calling on the God of David.” God has been faithful to His people. He freed them from slavery in Egypt. He promised all the way back in Genesis to send a deliverer. He then followed through on that promise by sending Jesus. Miracle after miracle can be seen throughout the bible, as well as instances of God helping his people in times of struggle. 

The Israelites in the Old Testament used to place rocks as markers to help them remember a time when God came through for them. They also passed down stories and songs to their children to remind them and teach them about the faithfulness of God. For me personally, I am able to do something similar. I can look back at all of my trials and see how God held my hand the whole time. He has provided when things seemed hopeless. He sent comfort when I felt alone. 

When I received my cancer diagnosis, I was able to look back at all of the times God had been faithful in my life up until that point. Yes, I was scared. I was discouraged. But I was also able to look up and say, “Okay, God. What’s the plan?” 

Don’t get me wrong- I struggle with trust. I am a bit of a control freak. I want things done my way, and my sinful human nature wants to do everything in my power to make it happen. But the evidence is also right in front of me when I look at all of my trials and see how God has gotten me through them all. This song is such a good reminder of that. 

“O God, my God, I need You; O God, my God, I need You now; How I need You now; O Rock, O Rock of ages; I’m standing on Your faithfulness; On Your faithfulness.” 

4 I Run for Life (Melissa Etheridge)

https://open.spotify.com/track/0Z7uvQWimhSBGVGiI8cH7C?si=dcb3e385322d41a2 

Melissa Etheridge, a rock singer and guitarist, had her own battle with breast cancer in 2004. She wrote this song as part of a fund raiser to raise awareness and funds for the Susan G. Komen event, Race for the Cure. This song is deeply personal to her as it reflects her own journey with cancer. 

My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2007. I am so proud of my mother for being the warrior and survivor that she is. Not only did my mother survive breast cancer, but also my aunt and my grandmother. Nick and I knew at some point in our marriage that I would have cancer. We just assumed that I’d have breast cancer, not uterine cancer! 

Etheridge in her song refers to cancer as “the darkness” (See, I told you this imagery would come back!). This darkness “had taken its toll.” She describes her surgeries and procedures by singing “they cut into my skin, and they cut into my body.” It seems like the darkness has won, but then she displays her resilience by singing “But they will never get a piece of my soul.” 

When I hear this song, I think of my mom. This song also makes me think of myself. Knowing I have a strong family history of cancer, this song has acted as a rallying battle cry for myself to prepare for a future battle with cancer. 

At the end of the song, Etheridge sings, “And someday if they tell you about it; If the darkness knocks on your door; Remember her; Remember me; We will be running as we have before.” She’s encouraging me now that when and if the time comes to be ready to run the race, or to fight the battle. Well, the time came on May 2nd, 2025 when I was told that I had, not breast cancer, but endometrial cancer. 

My sister is a cross country runner. I have learned from hearing her talk about running and seeing a couple of races that a race is a race, not a sprint. It is steady and requires endurance. Fighting cancer is similar in that sense. Cancer is not a quick fix. It involves a lot of pain and requires a lot of endurance. I am encouraged by this song to run the race and endure to the end. The darkness has come for me, but it does not define me, and it doesn’t get a piece of my soul. If anything, it makes me stronger and more resilient in the end. 

3 Daily Bread (Pat Barrett and Kari Jobe Carnes)

https://open.spotify.com/track/01XPEwK0kYQOHQEENQ94wZ?si=5473e8fa076d43e0 

On a Thursday, I got a text from a friend from church. She sent me a YouTube link and said, “This song made me think of you this morning. Praying for you today.” I listened to the song, and of course there were tears! 

This song opens with a reference to the Israelites who were wandering in the wilderness. God had just freed them from slavery in Egypt, and now He was preparing them for the Promised Land of Canaan. He provided food for them by sending mana from Heaven. The people were commanded to go out in the morning and take only what they needed for the day. If they took more than they needed, the leftover food rotted and had maggots in it. (Exodus 16) God was teaching His people to rely on Him and trust Him to meet their needs. 

Similar concepts referred to in the song are “daily bread” and “portion.” In the Lord’s Prayer, Jesus prays, “Give us this day our daily bread.” (Matthew 16:11; Luke 11:3) In other words, give us just enough for what we need for today. 

The song then says, “You meet me in my grumbling, You give me my portion. Though flesh and heart may fail me, Your strength is there to hold me.” Right now I am going through something difficult. It could be easy for me to grumble and complain to God. “Why me?” “You did this to me!” “How dare you?” 

God does not want us to grumble, though it is okay to complain. The whole book of Lamentations is complaints. Jeremiah is referred to as the “whiny prophet.” There are several instances of complaining and lamenting from David in the Psalms! The difference between lamenting and complaining versus grumbling is that the former still gives praise to God. Lamentation says, “God, I don’t like what is happening, but I still trust you.” Right now, in my time of grief, confusion, and pain, I need to trust God. 

I also think it’s so powerful that the chorus says, “You are our daily bread, You are our daily bread; And we will seek Your face before we seek Your hand; You are our daily bread, You are our daily bread; And we desire You before the Promised Land.” The singers are saying they are putting their need for Jesus before their other wants and needs. They are seeking Jesus first. 

This makes me think of the iconic story of Martha and Mary in the book of Luke. Jesus and His disciples came to their home. Martha was busy trying to clean and get food prepared. She was feeling so frustrated that Mary was doing nothing to help her. Mary was sitting at the feet of Jesus and listening to His teaching. Marth said, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” Jesus responded, “‘Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’” (Luke 10:38-42)

Mary chose her daily bread, her portion, her mana. She chose Jesus. Jesus was the most important thing. This song is such an important reminder throughout my cancer journey to turn to Jesus and seek Him first. My motives and my goals in regards to my health and fertility decisions need to be aligned with Him. I need to press into Him, not turn away. I need to sit at his feet. It can be easy to get distracted by complaints and the busyness of life, especially with having cancer on top of everything else! All that matters is Jesus. “You are our daily bread.” 

2 Psalm 34 (The Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1qWJ0xfTN0fxK2gZPX8rEo?si=7f7824d652fe4da8 

The summer after I got my cancer diagnosis, a team from our church went on a mission trip to Africa. While there, a member of the team went into cardiac arrest. Despite attempts to save her, and prayers from the whole church surrounding her, she passed away. The team returned to the states without her. She left behind her husband and children. 

This was a big deal in our congregation. The whole church went through a period of grieving. This song, “Psalm 34,” is taken directly from scripture. It was sung over and over again at church and amongst our small groups as a source of comfort and praise to God. 

I personally did not get to meet this woman, but she was clearly loved by so many and loved Jesus with all of her being. I remember praying for her. I was sure God was going to heal me of my cancer. If God can heal me, he can heal her too. Well, that is not what happened. It is something I still struggle with. 

I confess, especially if you are a believer and reading this, then I confess to you, dear brother or sister, that I have become a lazy Christian over the years. Life is full of distractions and hurts. I feel like I often go to church, then go home and forget to read my bible, or forget to serve in the church and in my community. This woman was actively serving the Lord overseas, and I was at home watching TV. Why do I get to live, and she doesn’t? This is still something I wrestle with. 

This Psalm was written by King David as he was fleeing from Saul. David tried to hide in enemy territory, but was recognized. God delivered him from the fearful situation, though he did not stop Saul from pursuing him. 

Verse 4 says, “I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.” Then in verse 6 and 7, he says, “This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.” David cried out to God, God heard him, and saved him. 

In verse 19, he says “The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.” The psalm talks about taking refuge in God for protection. It doesn’t matter if we are a lazy Christian, or if we are righteous and actively serving. We are going to face troubles in this life. “The righteous person” is not immune to trouble or suffering. 

David says in verse 8, “taste and see that the Lord is good.” Death is not good. This woman’s death was so unexpected and left us as a congregation with a lot of questions. But it also brought us closer together as a church family and strengthened our faith. Cancer is not good. But through this whole journey, I am comforted by my Father and reminded to trust Him. There has been so much growth in my faith, and I am able to see God provide for me over and over again. 

A lot of people, both Christians and non-believers, ask the question, “Why does God allow suffering?” Unfortunately, I don’t have an answer for that. I can say that sin, suffering, and death were not part of God’s original plan for us. But God is with us through it, protecting us and delivering us from our biggest enemy- sin. Through my own personal suffering, I have tasted and seen the goodness of God. This song reminds me of God’s goodness and in the midst of my suffering to praise Him. 

1 Trust and Obey (Hymn, Chelsea Moon & The Franz Brothers)

https://open.spotify.com/track/24WjMFz0XqGjn8WswCTe3v?si=b1eb72b7605b46e1 

I always knew a few hymns growing up in the church. When I was a baby, my mom used to sing a medley of hymns as a lullaby. A couple of years ago, I went to a women’s retreat with the women from my church. The theme was Hymns and how scripture and truth are revealed through them in our lives. Women gave testimonies about trials in their lives and how a specific song reminded them of God’s love and gave them hope. 

After that retreat, I started exploring and listening to hymns a little more. When I got my cancer diagnosis, this song, “Trust and Obey,” played in my head. I didn’t know all of the words, but the chorus played on a loop in my head over and over. “Trust and obey, for there’s no other way; To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.” 

We were quickly referred to an oncologist-gynecologist who ordered an MRI and CT scan. The MRI showed that the cancer was growing in my uterine wall and was about 28% of the way through. The oncologist’s original recommendation was to do a hysterectomy. However, she knew that we wanted a family.

She gave us the opportunity to try to treat the cancer. She warned us of the risks that the cancer could get worse or that nothing would change. With the placement of the cancer in my uterine wall, there was no scientific evidence to support that treatment would work. We would be taking a gamble. 

We were given such a big decision and did not have much time to make it. After a lot of discussion, prayer, and wise counsel, we felt God calling us to choose the fertility sparing route. It was a huge risk, and I was scared. There was the risk that we would put in all of this work to try to treat the cancer and end up making a bigger mess or wasting our time. While making this decision, the song kept playing in my head.  “Trust and obey, for there’s no other way; To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.” 

It has been over a year now, and I am so excited to report that after my last biopsy in March, 2026, the results showed only pre-cancer cells! We are getting ready for another biopsy and praying for no cancer! 

We are excited to soon be cancer-free, but now we have another problem- finances. Money is tight. Cancer has made finances even tighter. Our insurance doesn’t cover fertility treatment. We have done some advocacy and fundraising, but we are nowhere near where we need to be to reach our monetary goals. 

I have been struggling lately with doubt. I keep thinking, “What if we made a mistake?” “What if we are in over our heads?” It feels hopeless. We did all this work, but we don’t have the money to follow through on fertility treatments. 

I sometimes wonder if I misheard God. I wonder if He still wanted me to choose this path but maybe had another ending in mind for me. I am filled with conflicting feelings. I am excited to get rid of the cancer. I am so scared for the future. During this time of uncertainty, God is still calling me to “Trust and obey.” Even though the path before me is still difficult and uncertain, I am still called to trust my Father. He has a plan. He knows what he’s doing. I just need to trust Him. 

As previously mentioned, fertility treatments are expensive. I am trusting God to provide during this uncertain and scary time. I’d like to invite you to join in on our journey and help be an answer to prayer with us. In most states, insurance companies are not required to cover fertility treatment. Our next part of our journey will have to be paid for out of pocket! A round of IVF for example can cost $15,000 to $20,000! Thankfully, my sweet sister-in-law started a GoFundMe campaign for us to help with medical bills and fertility treatments. Follow me on social media and check out future blog posts as I share my story. Breast cancer seems to get all the attention in the media. But not all cancer is pink! My aim is to share my story and bring awareness beyond the pink ribbon.